Friday, March 5, 2010
spm.... 
alright people... it's official.
SPM RESULTS WILL BE OUT ON THE 11TH.
&that is equivalent to next thursday..
which is equivalent to the day i'm having my final paper
sweat =.="
which is equivalent to 6 days...
which is equivalent to less than a week...
which is equivalent to a few days' time...
which is equivalent to..........
urgh crap lah!!
i have nothing to say at this moment.
i feel hollow on the inside.
i know how bad i did, i really do.
i know my own circumscription, i don't need anyone to tell me.
SPM determines everything I KNOW THAT.
read this and ponder...
so often you come across mortifying moments, moments when you find yourself drown in the sea of hopelessness, despondently holding fast to the anchor of faith. you know you gotta go full steam ahead, you know you gotta get through this laborious encumbrance, but exactly how far can you make it? how long does it takes before the blustering waves swallow you deep within its grasp? it is just one of those days when you wish that you could just melt away into the thin air. all you wanted is to escape from everything; every single dilemma, every single glitch. you wonder, will tomorrow bring the happiness that you have been persistently yearning for? will tomorrow give you the answer to your worriment?
......or will tomorrow be just like every other anguishing day?
no fancy icons for this post. no smiley or any trace of happiness either. as silly as it may sound, i've been thinking very profoundly. oh yes, grace is finally doing some thinking,
i heard you.
it has been months since i have last attempted to be descriptive. pardon me for being so emotional. pardon me for such boring post. everyone has feelings &so do i, and right now,
crappiness is all that my receptors could perceive.
no, i am not an emo-freak,
not yet.
the reason is simple - i am just merely expressing myself. being a mediocre student, i wouldn't hope much.
or should i? perhaps engendering some assurances in myself is a way to go? or rather, would it be wiser to just go to bed, self-reproach, &cry over spilled milk?
i don't know.
i am tired. i am sicked of everything. having a happy guise does not necessary indicates that i
am happy on the inside. just like you, i feel the tense. i feel the need to survive in this antagonistic world. i go to college not just for the fun of it,
i have an ambition, just like you.
it may not be a professional career, but
i have high hopes in life. i may not serious on the outside, but on the inside,
i have big dreams, i have goals and i will make sure that i will bring it to a successful conclusion.
i look playful and i
am playful, but do you know at times HOW HARD I'VE TRIED TO DELIVER MY BEST AND TO BE THE BEST? it isn't my fault i am still such a failure!
i will prove to everyone that I WILL BE SUCCESSFUL.
i will prove to everyone that i am right by choosing this course.
my eventual career may not have anything to do with science, BUT I WILL BE AT TOP OF LADDER AND I WILL STILL BE ABLE TO CONTRIBUTE TO THE PLANET WITH MY
WORDS.
look down on me now, for all i care.
i have the rights to my own life i don't need lifeless people like you talking about me behind my back. if you think you're hell of a great, then at least prove it.
i am a science student, but words and arts are of my interest. i strongly believe that these two elements, when combined, would wrought wondrous changes to planet earth. i will save the planet from annihilation. with words, i will inculcate awareness among the people..
yes i believe i can!
look down on me now, for all i care.
only time will tell if i really am the Grace in your eyes. nevertheless, mark my words, i will prove you wrong.
"Solitary trees, if they grow at all, grow strong."
Winston Churchill.
ps. i cried writing this.
Friday, March 5, 2010
spm....
alright people... it's official.
SPM RESULTS WILL BE OUT ON THE 11TH.
&that is equivalent to next thursday..
which is equivalent to the day i'm having my final paper
sweat =.="
which is equivalent to 6 days...
which is equivalent to less than a week...
which is equivalent to a few days' time...
which is equivalent to..........
urgh crap lah!!
i have nothing to say at this moment.
i feel hollow on the inside.
i know how bad i did, i really do.
i know my own circumscription, i don't need anyone to tell me.
SPM determines everything I KNOW THAT.
read this and ponder...
so often you come across mortifying moments, moments when you find yourself drown in the sea of hopelessness, despondently holding fast to the anchor of faith. you know you gotta go full steam ahead, you know you gotta get through this laborious encumbrance, but exactly how far can you make it? how long does it takes before the blustering waves swallow you deep within its grasp? it is just one of those days when you wish that you could just melt away into the thin air. all you wanted is to escape from everything; every single dilemma, every single glitch. you wonder, will tomorrow bring the happiness that you have been persistently yearning for? will tomorrow give you the answer to your worriment?
......or will tomorrow be just like every other anguishing day?
no fancy icons for this post. no smiley or any trace of happiness either. as silly as it may sound, i've been thinking very profoundly. oh yes, grace is finally doing some thinking,
i heard you.
it has been months since i have last attempted to be descriptive. pardon me for being so emotional. pardon me for such boring post. everyone has feelings &so do i, and right now,
crappiness is all that my receptors could perceive.
no, i am not an emo-freak,
not yet.
the reason is simple - i am just merely expressing myself. being a mediocre student, i wouldn't hope much.
or should i? perhaps engendering some assurances in myself is a way to go? or rather, would it be wiser to just go to bed, self-reproach, &cry over spilled milk?
i don't know.
i am tired. i am sicked of everything. having a happy guise does not necessary indicates that i
am happy on the inside. just like you, i feel the tense. i feel the need to survive in this antagonistic world. i go to college not just for the fun of it,
i have an ambition, just like you.
it may not be a professional career, but
i have high hopes in life. i may not serious on the outside, but on the inside,
i have big dreams, i have goals and i will make sure that i will bring it to a successful conclusion.
i look playful and i
am playful, but do you know at times HOW HARD I'VE TRIED TO DELIVER MY BEST AND TO BE THE BEST? it isn't my fault i am still such a failure!
i will prove to everyone that I WILL BE SUCCESSFUL.
i will prove to everyone that i am right by choosing this course.
my eventual career may not have anything to do with science, BUT I WILL BE AT TOP OF LADDER AND I WILL STILL BE ABLE TO CONTRIBUTE TO THE PLANET WITH MY
WORDS.
look down on me now, for all i care.
i have the rights to my own life i don't need lifeless people like you talking about me behind my back. if you think you're hell of a great, then at least prove it.
i am a science student, but words and arts are of my interest. i strongly believe that these two elements, when combined, would wrought wondrous changes to planet earth. i will save the planet from annihilation. with words, i will inculcate awareness among the people..
yes i believe i can!
look down on me now, for all i care.
only time will tell if i really am the Grace in your eyes. nevertheless, mark my words, i will prove you wrong.
"Solitary trees, if they grow at all, grow strong."
Winston Churchill.
ps. i cried writing this.
