Sunday, August 1, 2010
What do I want in life. 
Have you ever come across certain moments in life when you were sitting on the couch alone &the solitariness had only caused you to fantasize about some things in life that you really wish you have the chance to get your hands on but no, you couldn't, because life sucks and life fucks us all.
Oh well, don't worry, you're not alone :)
I, for one, happened to have a lot (trust me when I say this) of crazy wild flights of fancy concerning what I want for my body. If only I am a couple of years younger, I would have happily told everyone that, "Don't ever let me hear you bitching about me being fat &flat, it is just that some of my body parts have not arrived yet" &then smile diabolically at them.
Years had gone by. I look at my reflection at the mirror now just to find my semblance exactly like the old one. Nothing.had.changed. :(
I am still flat, and FAT. Signing up for a gym and getting myself a personal trainer may sound reaaaally tempting and exciting, but I've got to bear in mind that I'm still a student, and my only source of "income" is through Mummy Ng. I ain't got no part time jobs &even if I do, I'm too lazy to work. (If you've been reading my blog long enough, you'd know that I had worked in Elle for 5 hours &I quited the next day because I couldn't stand the fatigue and the exhaustion was killing me. Oh come on, life's short, why suffer like that? *roll eyes*
So let's get back to the gist of my post.
WHAT AM I REALLY SEEKING FOR IN LIFE?!!
Seek isn't really the accurate term, but oh, whatever. Asalkan you paham, I paham, gao tim :)
Big Boobies 
I've hit puberty really early. So you can somehow imagine how great life has been treating me. I was the tallest among all my girl friends in primary school, and once we were in high school? I.WAS.THE.EFFING.SHORTEST!
Niama.
And it wasn't solely my height that was stunted, you should be happy to know that my boobs never grew bigger from then on.
HOW TRAGIC, I KNOW!!
Small waist 
My waist? Sigh, another sad case.Thanks too my wide pelvis and my darn huge ribcage, I will never look thin even if I really am thin. Don't trust me? Feel free to pull up my tee &take a look for yourself.
Sobs, feel like crying now T.T
Sexy legs 
This is perhaps something that I'll kill for.
My big fat thighs had undergone more than enough humiliation for a lifetime. I seriously have no idea why even fat women can have sexy, slim legs &yet I can't. Gosh, you don't know how much I'd like my thighs to be slim and sexy. (Hopefully without the commotion of going to a nearby gym :( )
Ahhhh well. So this is me for you. I'll continue writing on this entry. I need to get to the couch and continue with my fantasy first :)
xoxo.
Eaten @ 4:31 PM |
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